every you and every me

there are bunch of people out there
then why?why?and why? the only person
that always stick to my brain and to my heart is you?
im like.what the hell babe.crush your though please.
no.no and billions of no
i just cant.
i cant do it.
i love him so much i cant do it.
just give me one last shot
i want to save this bound between us.
i care for you.
but that person like.......................
idk.

he came when he want
he back off when he feels smthg wrong

i was like................
haih.

why you start fill my heart when in the end you SMASH it into pieces?
im not the one who fall in love with you at the first place,but you are
then why oh why you ended it this way?
why you let me burst the tears while you hanging out with your new friend happily?
why treat the lady that you love like a piece of crap
why?
why let me going crazy over you..and you keep the ignorance game?
im hurt.you hurt me vry much.
but still i hold this feeling, i keep saying to myself

be strong.never give up on him.

why treat me this way
why being so mean........

i cant concentrate on my life,study.
i just cant do it

somebody please hit me
makes me lost my memory.
all of it
i want to not know nur zahidah past/history
hit me with books or whatever
so my head will bleed and lost the entire memory
i just cant take it anymore